It was not the way it was supposed to be.

Pan's Labyrinth. I finally watched the movie. It was AMAZING! There just just one problem: the ending.

I wanted to cry it was so unexpected for me. I really wanted her world to be real and for her to get what she had tried so hard to make real. That little actress is amazing, she had me believing that everything she was going through was actually happening. The ending was a huge blow for me. Although my girlfriend argued that the whole movie was set up for her to die I still am pissed about it. God that was such an amazing movie!

Shane

So while I was working at my current salon today I got a call from my friend's employer asking me to work with them. I am so excited. I don't think I'm going to bail out on my current employer just this second but I'm seriously considering just giving all my hours to this new job. They have 401K, they pay for classes, the pay for me to go to classes, they pay for my mileage, and I'd be making an ass load more hourly and in tips at this new place. I about flipped after she got done telling me about it! So I'm pretty much going to be Shane and that has me excited too.

I'm pretty sure if my life was a movie it would be phenomenal. I know its hard to imagine a real person with an actual, eventful, life through an online blog, but my life is real. So real. Last night was amazing; Michelle and her friends had a little get together at her house. I love her room mates, they're so cute.

If my life was a movie I would have the songs Rock Shit and Fuck the Pain Away in back to back scenes. I would also have as many Peaches songs as fashionably possible in the memoir.

S4

Last night was much needed. Actually, scratch that, this weekend was much needed.

A friend of mine's birthday was Saturday, she turned 17! What a little cutie she is. So I got her paraphernalia on a necklace. It's very small, like as long as your pinkie. It's clear with brown swirl lines and some bright blue swirl lines are your the mouth piece. We decided to name him the most evil name we could think of- "Dubya: Small but deadly." It fits. So it was a very relaxing night for me as you could just as well guessed it. Saturday was also my first relaxing night in nearly six months so it went quite well.

Last night was very fun. Since I have turned 18 I have not done all the things I claimed I would. For instance: buying porn, my first pack of legal cigarettes (why is it that I really never have to pay for anything when there are boys around? It gets kind of annoying at times), and I had not yet been to a club. So last night I went to a club for the first time in my life. If you're from around the Dallas area you know exactly what S4 is: It's the most well known gay club in Dallas= a very good night. The drag show was fun, Crystal Summers was there (Look her up, seriously, she's the hottest woman I have ever seen and even though she's a trans I would still... she's gorgeous.) I went with a friend from work (Justin), his boyfriend (Kyle), his very good friend (Lauren), and his boyfriend's two room mates (Lauren #2 and Michelle). Michelle is very cute. Not in that femme way or anything, she's just cute. And she's shy around me. I find that almost comical due to the fact I'm never really shy around complete strangers. I'm generally shy are people I will never see again which is completely ironic to me.

Seriously, this stupidity needs to end

I don't understand people. I simply do not get them at all. You're in a relationship with someone (just picture it if this has never happened to you.) And you're in this relationship thinking everything is straight forward and just happenin and exciting and new and happy and la-de-da. Then BAM! the person tells you they want to be with their ex again. The same ex this person has not stopped bitching about how annoying this ex really is. The ex who has sent non-stop texts to their friend (yours truly) about how this is going to be hard to get over, about how much it hurts to see him with someone else, blah blah fuckin blah. You've been with someone else! You're the one who dumped him! Get the fuck over it already and let him be happy with someone other than your greedy fat ass! I do not get it! Why do people insist on getting back into relationships after they have already gone into extremely deep shit. And further more, I do not understand why people insist on getting into some self-loathing relationship. I'm sick of it. I am so completely sick of being the nice fucking person here. I'm so god damn sick of people getting me the impression that they don't want to be together b/c "we could have been great." WHAT THE FUCK! Who says that? We could have been great.... yeah we fuckin could have but are we, HELL FUCKING NO because you're a god damned pussy and cannot handle something as sane as two people, who get along, liking one another! What the fuck! I'm so sick of this bullshit. Fuck you world of fucked relationships, just fuck you. Thank you and good night!