I've always wanted to be a person of substance. I've always wanted to move people with what I think and what I believe in. I don't really know anyone who would say that they DIDN'T want to have this effect on people but I feel that I'm almost, in a way, being greedy. Because, what generally happens, is that I pick my side and my belief and I argue argue argue it until the other person is convinced that what I speak is the truth, try to accept my strong views, or at least just give up and pretend they're going to believe me. This is NOT to say that I'm not open minded, I love listening to other peoples' opinions-- its the way we are truely able to understand the subject being debated. I do believe however, when I feel that I am so completely right about something it is impossible for me to change my mind.

I'm mainly directing this towards certain individuals (aka: the people my siblings date) whom I know could not shake my impression of them. I understand my siblings can do whatever they want with their lives, date whomever they want to date, but all I am asking is for them to just listen to me when I say I am not crazy about girl number so-and-so who does crack/has a boyfriend/has a girlfriend/calls them an asshole and covers it up by saying "just kidding!". I am not being full of myself when I say I can read people very well, maybe not the people that I date b/c that's just me being biased and pretending the same thing won't happen again.

So... for my older sister: The girl has a boyfriend. I know she says she can't do anything and won't do anything with you b/c she's so honest and told you she's in a relationship with a guy. That was very nice of her to inform you. However, it was not very nice of her to go against her honest like she did with you... for 7 hours. You should have learned with the previous girl you fell inlove with who had a girlfriend/fiance. Even if they are ridiculously sexy, she didn't leave "Miss Piggy" I doubt this new girl is going to be any different/

for my older brother: Don't you dare get back together with that girl again. This is the second time she has cheated on you when the both of you were going to study abroad for the summer. If she's doing it out of the country I'm pretty sure she's doing it in the country. She is not worth you losing yourself over and you deserve the best. I know you don't think so but you do so shut it and get over it.

for my younger brother: Stop hanging out with skanky bitches. I will beat the crap out of you and them if I ever even think you're messing around with those dirty hoes. I'm serious.

Thank god I've only got three to deal with.